The first 4 weeks of waking Brooklyn every 2 hours day and night was SO hard. Being a first time mom, recovering from C-section and battling all these new hormones was awful. Wait..Awful isn't right, it was more like torture with a coating of awful just for fun. Just imagine, trying to nurse a sleeping baby, while trying to wake her with cold wash cloths. Sound fun? Hopefully this next baby will come out a little more awake. I can always dream, right?
We were down to one nursing session in the morning since she turned one. Once I found out that I was knocked up again, I wanted to get my boobs back for a little while before this baby is born.
Her last nursing session was on Sunday morning, October 26th. Leading up to this, I knew that Brooklyn didn't ~really~ care. It was me that was going to have a hard time. NOT that I wanted her permanently on my boob but that it really meant that she was growing up and not needing me as much.
Well, just like I thought, Brooklyn did fine! And to my disbelief so did I. I was so nice not to worry about yet something else in the morning. Before then, I felt like I couldn't get my day going until I nursed her. Which was hard on days that she decided to sleep until 9am. Now there is no need to think that way. Whenever I wake, is when I can get ready. It was SO freeing.
Now if you are reading this wondering how ~not~ breastfeeding anymore can be freeing then you have never done it. I can't say that Brooklyn never had formula (she had to in the hospital) but I can say that she has had my very best for 13 beautiful, blissful, stressful, loving months. I wouldn't change anything about my breastfeeding experience.
Here is a picture of Brooklyn in a boob comma when she was just 3 mths old.
Adios!
5 comments:
Your bringing tears to my eyes... I feel very much like what you described. Dr. Clawges is awesome, isn't she!!! We should throw her a party! I couldn't have stuck with it without her. As a mommy of a 4 month old, I'm already having separation anxiety!! We worked so darn hard to get all this going, I can't imagine stopping it now!!! I love our "sophie/mommy" time!
I love the milk coma pic! You've inspired me to post some!!
Congrats on making it this far!! You did GREAT, mama!
Amber,
Well, as you know, I think you have done a great job...with everything, even the hard stuff! Brooklyn is a wonderful, healthy display of your hard work! You'll do great with #2, too!
Love,
Shannon
I miss those boob coma moments. Yeah, they were nearly 10 years ago! Ouch! That hurt. I'm old, the monsters are old and sometimes I wish I had those milk jugs back instead of SSOS (sagging sacks of skin). But it was all worth it! Your doing a great job lil' Sis! Big hug!
Congrats on the new one coming! And I can totally relate to your dreading/relief over the weaning. I was thinking it would be rough, but it was soooo nice to just have my body back again (except the baby pounds still on my hips). It WAS freeing!
And I second that motion about the party for Dr. C...she was our breastfeeding lifesaver!
Congrats again!!
Love,
Nina
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